The old audaciousness blog header from a lifetime ago. Photo taken during my first trip to Ometepe at the beginning of 2007.February 27th will be my last day with Nuestros Pequeños Hermanos International.
This is a long considered decision.
My time here has been a worthwhile sacrifice. Any choice we make involves a sacrifice of the alternatives, but we make those choices because we believe they are the best for our lives.
And it was.
But the sacrifice is no longer worth it. I am tired.
Inefficiencies, frustrations and low professional standards in certain areas existed within NPHI since my first day. But I dealt with them because I saw them as cultural differences, normal non-profit difficulties and the challenges of growing into a multi million international organization.
The difficulties, however, have grown over the last several months and worn me out with the constant struggle.
The lack of response by those who authorize the projects over the last several months has left me unable to my job.
The lack of communication from those who have decided to do my job for me has left my work of the last few months with little worth.
The lack of consistency when the need for saving is preached, but the action of spending, giving steep raises and hiring unnecessary staff is taken.
The lack of professionalism where the value of donors is extolled, but donations are lost in the system.
Don't get me wrong.
NPHI is an organization with a wonderful mission. My struggles were not 100% of the time, nor with all of NPHI. That it has flaws is to be expected as it, along with all other organizations, is made up of human beings.
While two years feels like a long time to me right now, trustworthy others who have been here many more say that over the long view, NPHI really is improving, and I believe that.
But it is time for me to move on to another audacious project.
I have another month and a half here, so I'll let you know what this new project (a.k.a. job) is when I figure it out. If you have any ideas, suggestions or contacts, feel free to let me know.
I hope you stick with me for my last posts from Nicaragua and beyond.